Chapter forty-four in Sense and Sensibility is an emotional confession of Mr. Willoughby to Elinor when he comes to check on a sick Marianne. While this scene is intended to pardon Willoughby, many pieces of this chapter show how undeserving he still is of Elinor and Marianne’s forgiveness.
To begin, when Willoughby arrives at the Dashwood residence, he is agitated and short with Elinor. Elinor allows him in, but asks him to calm down with "well, sir -- be quick -- and if you can -- less violent." Even after knowing that Elinor is feeling uncomfortable, Willoughby remain short and rude as he says "Sit down, and I will be both." He is not helping his case by being rude.
Next, as Willoughby continues to speak in a cryptic manner, Elinor believes he has been drinking and advises him to come back tomorrow. Here Willoughby openly states "Yes, I am very drunk. -- A pint of porter with my cold beef at Marlborough was enough to overset me." While many might argue that he is not truly drunk with only one pint of beer, it could also be said that if Willoughby admits to being drunk, then why not assume he is? If he was not drunk, then why should he say he is? One reason might be to make Elinor feel pity for him and excuse his obtrusive behavior; however, being drunk does not ease Elinor’s apprehension as Willoughby continues to speak, furthering his demise.
Throughout Willoughby’s speech, specific quotes stand out. For example, the following quote, no matter how sorry he is for doing so should not be discredited by his guilt. “Careless of her happiness, thinking only of my own amusement, giving way to feelings which I had always been too much in the habit of indulging, I endeavoured, by every means in my power, to make myself pleasing to her, without any design of returning her affection." Willoughby openly admits to his two faced treatment of Marianne and he should not be so easily forgiven just because he is sorry. Next, he mentions how he just had to see Marianne after he had left and became married to someone else and he recalls “To see Marianne, I felt would be dreadful, and I even doubted whether I could see her again, and keep to my resolution. In that point, however, I undervalued my own magnanimity, as the event declared; for I went, I saw her, and saw her miserable, and left her miserable -- and left her, hoping never to see her again." He left her feeling worse than she had already previously felt and even when Elinor asks "Why did you call, Mr. Willoughby?" "A note would have answered every purpose. Why was it necessary to call?" he only states that “It was necessary to my own pride.” So, even when knowing how much he might further hurt her, Willoughby visits...